21st of June 2009, Father's Day is this day. Call of celebration as many did. For me, its just another day in the calender. I cannot even recall, as I have been walking and feeling like a zombie for days. Just that occasional smile and laughter from me. Many things seem so "empty".
Sioklan woke me up, saying that we are having lunch in Orchid Country Club. Only then, did I remember that its THE DAY. Then, I recall mummy saying during Mother's Day that baby Matthew is here to celebrate Father's Day with all. That statement was only made just 2 weeks ago. How time flies. Its Father's Day, but mum is here to celebrate with us. Now its my 4th year of being a daddy. A DAY that i am worthy to celebrate. In the cafe, I am always looking out at families in 3 generations. Many I envy as I look. Sudden, emptiness fills my heart. The thought of mum not around, just fills me with unhappiness. Looking at dad eating, I can sense his emptiness and loss. I feel so sorry for dad. All these happenings are so sudden for him to bear. At times, I am just so worried about his well being. I am now so afraid of losing him.
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